Wednesday, May 4, 2005

Entry #83
Just to stray off-topic, which I do not like doing, but I feel is
necessary to so my head is more clear when I do train. Been distracted
at the gym before and it was a big waste of time in terms of
efficiency. I'd sit there and think about stuff before I realized that
6 minutes had gone by, when I was supposed to wait for only 1 minute.
So today George got a date to prom. Was the last day to purchase
tickets. Looks like I'm not going. Was actually feeling depressed and I
don't know why. Depression always means anger, mostly for me. I was mad
at George even. I was mad at everyone. I was mad at my locker, too; I
punched it, and made a huge dent in it. It looked awesome, like it was
a form of identification for me. Then I felt better. And then I
realized that punching makes me happier than going to prom would,
happier than anything would. So it's good now.

Entry #82
I'm making an entry early in the morning before school to vent out some
frustrations. Total of 4 hours of sleep, and I woke up late with no
time for usual breakfast, which takes an approximately an hour to
consume. Gonna post-pone lifting until tomorrow when I'm more in the
game and have more rest. Did a total of 16 one-handed push-ups on each
arm to wake me up.


I feel better already.